today september 10, 11, or 12th

2cd lesson apology
I'm sorry no sense of self
I'm sorry no judgement
no taste no morals no
ethics no choice no
freedom from not being
me

can I actually tell myself
everything will be fine
label it as paranoia
ever watch fight club
understand it smoke in
tongues no listening to
talk about smoking
thinking about speaking
in tongues sick to
my stomach need to
get job and gather
all belongings to
finish everything and
change all started

saw him again for
a while and what do
I do 5 minutes of
fatal attraction

need to pack and move
out need to finish
Artemis Fowl by
Eoin Colfer and Hells
Angels by Hunter S.
Thompson and Catch22
by Joseph Heller and
all of Carlos Castaneda
and Fight Club by
Chuck Palahniuk

there is some god(s)
how can there be a word
a meaning if that _
does not exist

Friday is over
Saturday 1 pmish driving around
enjoying the weather
enjoying the fact that
bedroom eyes held by
surprise my hand
such natural intimacy
Sunday was that feeling
Monday I'm actually typing this
and from here on....