2003-02-18 - 11:40 p.m.
well here i am....
i've been off for quite some time
this is the reason why....
my website
well fuck me susie....the server's closed for dland...and here i wanted to make you all pretty and stuff.....

Wednesday 19 I lost my job as a waitress server whatever
why am I inept at everything
Oh I'm just the person you're looking for
I just do everything wrong

Sunday 23 drudgery
people don't want change so they will hold on either to their first impression of you or the worst of you

2003-02-26 - 7:01 p.m.
there are several things that i hope for today.
i hope someone else would have a house.
i hope someone else wouldn't ever be so far away.
i hope someone else won't be distraught when someone else goes away.
i hope someone else is safe tonight.
i hope...

2003-02-27 - 3:25 p.m.
i have this boy
this boy wants me to go with him to lots of places and do lots of things
together
i am afraid of how he'll feel when he realizes that i won't leave you
we're not through
i want to be there when you leave
and when you say goodbye
i want it to mean you'll return

going out of my mind drunk friday february 28
so fucking drunk
but that's ok cause our ka-tet holds strong and I love them dearly
...I just
always love
never forget
always in love
never leave
in the end this is it all we have here is each other
break my heart never end the katet
would you think this the end?
love lasts forever
break not the bonds of what is to be
bring not unto oneself what is meant to happen
love thee, with all within me
break not this fragile heart
i need thee to carry hard through perilous task
break not my heart, love
my love
If I don't keep moving the whole awareness keeps flashing.
flash flash how did I get here?
what am I doing?
I lie down and the world spins.
now everything's kicked in including the 1/4 worm of mescal and I just want everything to be alright
so now I sit here in this grand illusion and try to keep this inside and stay conscious