2002-08-24 - 5:50 p.m.
sotto
Chocolate covered dream august2420025pmishsaturday
get up at ungodly hours fall asleep in hope only
Waking up at Wal*mart is scary
Not having sleep the day before then not
Being able to is self-cruelty
Eating when I shouldn't
Reality paused at a chocolate chip donut
When I actually 'sleep' everyone else gets along
When I'm gone everyone else talks to each other
Of two months of trial and error
I established that I'm a ....a ....
With a mouth wider than the Grand Canyon
The tarot were right
I should hide everything
here's some more junk
first test august182002sunday
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
*Almost21first successful move I think
Have moved before
Virginity is on list of eventually
Mum tells everyone that she is psycho
Want someone to care about
Pensive*
Nobody else here baby
No one here to blame
No one to point the finger
It's just you and me and the rainNobody made you do it
No one put words in your mouth
Nobody here taking orders
When love took a train heading south...I don't want to lie
(Where do we go)
I don't want to have a feel for the song
And I want to love, and I...
(Where do we go)
And I want to feel alone
or is it here that i'm alone?
*I just found out that it's August 4*
I don't know what day this is but it doesn't really matter anyways. I have to start someway anyways.
I have cold fried rice stuck to my toes, but that's ok. I think. ... I have to clean anyways.
Let's see, first thing first, I should list my likes and dislikes.
I like chocolate. I like it better if I get to eat it. And if it's not stale.
I like ocha icecream and almond cookies. I like daifukan.
I like kittens but not to eat them. (HAHA) I like to travel.
I really LIKE IT WHEN I CAN SPELL BECAUSE THIS KEYBOARD REALLY SUCKS.
I feel slightly better.
I like my fries I also like my friends...whichever comes first...(typo)
sore dakedo ne....
c(:
I would add more but...I don't want to right now
***daikirai***
kimochi ii ne? janai nano...hitori
well everyone is alone right? Loneliness is not being alone.
Not much I can do about being lonely...Being by myself, I'm fine. But as I get along (older), loneliness increases.
It's really pathetic. My increased awareness of everyone else gets on my nerves.
So nice that I irritate myself.
Every time I see them, all it does is remind me. I hate that. And then they want to know what's wrong with me. Oh joy.
I don't like to explain myself. Nobody gets me when I do.
I constantly remind myself to not even open my mouth. I think my mouth is broken.
Or I have managed to lose some connections in my brain. Which seems to be the main thing wrong with me.
shimatta wakaranai hanashimono nano.
Now I really don't feel like typing anything but I will for decency's sake.
Why, because it's necessary for mankind. Because, well frankly Scarlette, I don't give a damn
soshiteru watashi no koto. kono hito no kimochi wa chotto dame. soshiteru watashi ii hito ni naru Ne...
gambarimasu yo
sore dake do ne kono hi nanimo shiteru so lazy
waaaaiiii piyopiyopiyo
aa nan o hanashi wakaranai
kamisama chotto nemui mo tabetaii
OK time to rant
-kawaii mo akamai wahine. omoshiroiina, fuushigiina
wakaranaii...
-kawaii otoko. watashi no chotto suki. kisushitai. wakaranai kono hito. itsumo hanashinai. doushite, wakaranai? eto, ano, kore dame demo watashi...
more on this later
deshou deshou watashi kinou no ban...
kyo wa 8gatsu 10no hi kyo watashi shigoto shimashita. nani hanashimashouka (shitai)? anyways, tarot kikimashita no wa. naze kono jikan? subete no tarot wa seikakuna. hontouyo! ano ne.